Esta Vez - Café Tacvba

De pronto ya no se que pasa en mi, 

de pronto ya no se quien soy, 

de pronto ya no reconozco nada de lo que un día fui. 

Hoy me pregunto que cambio dentro de mi, 

Hoy me pregunto a donde voy, 

tal vez no existen las respuestas para lo que intento resolver, 

Esta vez vengo buscando el corazón, 

Esta vez lo intentare otra ves, 

Esta vez ni mas yo tratare de hacerlo bien, si la vida me regala otra oportunidad. 

De pronto ya no se que pasa en mi, 

De pronto ya no se quien soy, 

Tal vez no existen las respuestas para lo que intento resolver, 

Esta vez no quiero otra ilusión,

Esta vez lo intentare otra ves, 

Esta vez ni más yo tratare de hacerte bien, 

si la vida me regala otra oportunidad.

Sunday Still As a Field With No Breeze

January 17 

Sunday so still like a breezeless field

I can't seem why its a worldwide range: the feel of sundays being monotonous. From being piled up with chores to do around the house, the t.v. channels throwing on air miserable shows. 

Just an overall boredom vibe is in the air, with the only though of tomorrow the reluctant welcoming of monday. Only highlight is in my case some family members do come over here to my grandmother's house, but it gets interesting when my cousins come it can have the whole joking around air to it.

Yet of course on days like these, I feel grateful for the internet, with it I can pretty much look up anything that can possibly ease the time dragging of a breezeless sunday.

And also help feel far away distance from loved ones feel shorter, and not loose the touch of communication.

Like not very long ago I finished writing a message in response to a friend of mine. She was having those cloudy days and I felt useless, I did not know how to cheer her up. Then I remembered this song Ella by Bebe, a Spaniard singer and song writer. Ella is such a beautiful song, it can wipe any type of 'ache' away, and bring upon a smile. Filling us up with hope and a refreshed outlook on a current present moment one can be going through. She responded after seeing such video that it did help her ease the moment, and well it made me very happy to know I was able to assist her a bit.

Monday should bring a stronger breeze to it, no matter what tomorrow is always better than yesterday, so there is always hope waiting to be revealed.

Video of: Ella - BEBE

Plain

January 16,

One Plain Mystical Saturday 

       Today there's certainly a peculiar feel to it, as if some mist of positivity is surrounding and floating around the air I am breathing. Even though I can't be able to see the purpose of such uplifting aura, and just feel its embrace, filling me with such "I can do anything" state of mind. Supplying me with ideas who flow just as smooth as the images to accompany them with, and even my iTunes is in harmony with it because, its selected on "shuffle" mode and keeps playing the songs perfect for the moment.

Now I could admit that of course a car ride on the passenger seat would be its 'cherry on top' to this feeling. Riding with windows down, head out, hair loose moving effortlessly in sync with the wind, happiness showing its way through a smile, and beautiful sightings of the free natural things while making my way along the road. 

And the all of it all is just careless, free.

I really do welcome days like these, even though I am not at the wishful ideal setting, I still feel amazing inside. Really would love for all the upcoming day to feel just like this one. Just plain normal day with a mystical feel to it enabling good and contentful mood overall.

Mental Tunnel Ride

I love it,

Yes I said it I love it all.

Such substance entices me with its beautiful lights decorating that tunnel path.

Come it implores, take my hand & effects will wrap round you.

Come it implores, creativity should be for you to claim.

I'm slipping through the creases of right & wrong, …but the colorful lines.

My pupils are like camera lenses, dilated, zooming in & out.

I feel the feedback building up from the amp coming my way.

What to call this? not sure what to label it but, sure is one heck of a mental ride.

Stranger 16 Years Ago

Down a road I've been heading throughout this time, yet, can't recall from which point on I diverted the path from the strange girl staring back at me in the picture. I know years have past, and changes have come and gone just like the seasons.

For now we are two strangers whose life started as a whole, along the road away from you, I lost the innonce staring at me, lost the abitlity to believe like her, lost the empty spaces of brain ready to be filled, spaces occupied now by diversity of things that shape the person I am now. Empathy for others remain, but in the form of expression of an autistic kid.

There I was a toddler, three year old at the most, ready to receive life as it came by. Full of wish, tales believed, tenderness so fragile for simple things to crack me. However I am one more human whose mind can only question and daze off to its own constructed world, where cracking in front of others has no more welcome space, and selective hearing is an adoptive skill gained by society's teaching institutions.

Don't bother to reach out my way little girl, we are two different strangers. Keep your essence, love, hope, wishes & dreams burning; for I'll be needing them when I come around with bewildered gaze wanting a new ray of hope.

Presence of Negativity In the Human Mind

Society has taken care of implementing that negativity can result as a downfall space occupying in the mind. That it's total existence of it all, should not be more than 10 seconds for it can only bring bad things your way.
Yet, negativity if used correctly can be the reason for change in a certain aspect in our life, something that is not letting us be in complete satisfaction, but rather making us feel like there is more. But if such thoughts were to be ignored then our life would just be plain through out our existence, nevertheless though, those negative thoughts are accompanied by dislike and discomfort, no questioning that.
And its there where we as pilots of our own life, writers of our own self bibliography that we should find a way to the problem, leading to a solution, or otherwise not doing anything about it, could consume us to our self destructive core, where the results are not brought to us with a second chance, and only a sour taste to those we left behind and cared deeply about us.
Conclusion to it all, well it is up to each other, the important points have been exposed. To which all there is, is hope for there to be less committing the wrong decision, instead can learn how to cope and break through it all, be a great example amongst those who still struggle & those who gave up along the way.

Paradigmas

September 18, 2009

Si dejas que los
paradigmas
de la sociedad
tomen la riendas
de tu vida, sera que algun dia
podras
contestar las preguntas
mas simple y complejas
de tu vida.
1-.Quien fuiste?
2-.Quien eres?
3-.Quien serás?
Al final de esa tres preguntas
puedes decir que las 3
tienen algo
en comun, o mas bien,
no sera que por los propios paradigmas
te perdiste entre la
pregunta
1 & 2
y es por eso
que ahora
la pregunta numero 3
te parece dificil de hallar o responder.