I know by now that you're free & more than free, your usual self.
Time has passed, by now I'd accept that old phrase "time is pain's remedy"
Maybe not so much recovery from pain was needed after all for you,
Just time to fully bury me through your memories.
Tell him that this is no plea
Just simple note with a melody.
Tell him that I've tried to forget just like him
All those wishes, promises & could be's he made to me.
As well, I have tried erasing him from my memory.
Believe me when I say this:
I make up images in order not see our movie play through.
Consciously I have no saying.
No matter what I try
Everything fails once I close my eyes
Keep wanting for all of this not to be,
Keep wishing it was one more lie.
Million things I have tried
But unlike you,
Can't seem to see through victory.
Tell him that I wonder
If anything he ever said was really meant,
Or was it all a pretend of sympathy.
Wondering is all I ever do
No matter what, no response comes through
I just can't seem to understand
how a soul becomes a ghost
Tell him not to think bad of me
Just because I quite can't grasp what's to be
How nothing of the everything will ever be
Tell him that from everything
There only 2 regrets my way.
Regret just how couldn't make
the goodbye hold a bit longer.
Certainly how I did not perceive
The last night he preferred to step away & sleep
instead of confronting maybe things could've been
Tell him that'll never hate anything from him
Because I know he was the soul to be
Tell him that he needs not to worry
that this is just a note with a melody
I ask for some greater energy to give me
his ability that made our memories belong to a grave
where wishes, promises of the could be's remain buried.
Time takes every single pain away,
But once again time does not prefer me
I wish so much for a simple miracle light
that could lead you in the old way, the --P
But I must accept this reality
I'm unaware of why I'm your enemy.
Subconsciously my heart remain
calling out for --P
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